I'm sorry.

You may have noticed an absence in my posting lately.

Some of that's because I'm kind of busy in Meatspace.

But really, I'm preoccupied with guilt.

• I'm offensive.
• I'm insensitive.
• I sometimes speak without thinking.
• With some frequency, I make jokes that offend people who don't find them funny.
• I forget to say "Thank you."
• I forget to remember (redundant, but I need the redundancy) to honor people I know and respect.
• I think that I'm right, and refuse to admit that I'm wrong about things I clearly don't know very much about. Worse, I'll sometimes tell the person that does know about the subject that they're wrong.
• I get angry and say things I shouldn't and don't immediately apologize.
• I needle people sometimes, just to goad.
• I question if I'm a very good person.
• I suspect a lot of the time that I'm not a very good friend, relative, or loved one.

And I really am sorry for that.

I don't say this to ask for atonement or forgiveness or to have people tell me that it's okay or I'm a good a guy; I think I know the real score. I don't actually hate myself.

But I sure am sorry.